šæ SOUL WEALTH CHRONICLES ISSUE 86
What I Was Taught vs. What I Felt
Thereās a difference between what you were taughtā¦
and what you always felt.
For most of my life, I didnāt realize there was a gap between the two.
Because when something is taught to you early, repeatedly, and with authorityā¦
you donāt question it.
You absorb it.
You follow it.
You build your identity around it.
Even when something deep inside you quietly whispers:
This doesnāt fully feel right.
I can trace that feeling back to childhood.
Not as rebellion.
Not as defiance.
But as a quiet awareness.
A subtle knowing that I couldnāt quite explain at the time.
Because I didnāt have the language for it yet.
All I knew was that there were moments when what I was being told
didnāt fully match what I felt.
And when youāre young, you donāt trust your feelings over what youāre taught.
You trust the structure.
You trust the authority.
You trust the repetition.
So I learned to override that inner voice.
And thatās what most of us do.
Not because weāre weak.
But because weāre conditioned.
We are taught:
what to believe
how to think
what is right and wrong
what is acceptable
what is not
And when those teachings are tied to identity, community, and belongingā¦
it becomes even harder to question them.
Because questioning doesnāt just feel like curiosity.
It can feel like disconnection.
But the feeling never left.
It just got quieter.
Buried under routine.
Buried under expectation.
Buried under āthis is just how things are.ā
Until it wasnāt.
As I got older, that quiet voice started to come back.
Not loudly.
Not dramatically.
But persistently.
Through moments where things didnāt add up.
Through contradictions I couldnāt ignore.
Through experiences that didnāt match what I had been taught to expect.
And eventually, I reached a point where I couldnāt ignore it anymore.
What Iām realizing now is this:
I was taught what to believe.
But I was never taught how to trust myself.
And those are not the same thing.
There is a difference between:
learning something
and knowing something
Learning comes from outside.
Knowing comes from within.
And for a long time, I prioritized what I learned
over what I knew.
Not anymore.
This isnāt about rejecting everything I was taught.
Itās about being honest about what still resonatesā¦
and what doesnāt.
Itās about allowing myself to hold both:
Gratitude for what supported me when I needed it
and clarity about what no longer aligns with who I am becoming.
Because growth will always ask you to choose.
Not between right and wrong.
But between:
šš½ what is familiar
and
šš½ what is true for you now
And the truth isā¦
That quiet voice I felt as a child?
It was never wrong.
It was just waiting for me to trust it.
There comes a moment when you realize that your life isnāt meant to be lived by default.
Itās meant to be lived by decision.
And that decision starts with something simpleā¦
listening to yourself.
With grace,
Natalie
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